|Smoking / Not smoking
||[Jul. 15th, 2001|07:01 pm]
Wonder how people can stand smoking, i cannot even stand sitting next to a person who smokes ! What ? Don't they feel the smoke going into their lungs, sitting there and, like, numbing everything ?
OK, i am a bit strong here, i did smoke when i was younger some cigarettes, for example, one in the morning before going to class, and that was, well, cool. But now, i really so much feel the harm it is doing to myself that i do not smoke even one cigarette occasionally. It is not that i fear getting hooked, i know i never get hooked by cigarette, but it is simply that after smoking, i do not feel good, and even when i smoke, i feel my tongue getting burned, my throat getting, i do not know how to express that, "coarse", and i need to do quite a lot of inspiration-expiration to get rid of the bad feeling. Add to that that i can also get headache (but that is more the case when passive smoking than when smoking) and you get the picture.
Oh well, that only means i always move on when somebody starts smoking next to me. When they are friends, they quickly realize i will not stay with them if they begin to smoke. What i do not do is ask them to stop smoking (except of course if i HAVE to stay, which is quite rare) but i usually make it quite clear that i leave because there is smoke.
Well, well, people who smoke must have their senses quite numbed down to bear it ! LOL, they may even not be able to taste anything, or smell anything, not talking about eyes that get itchy, and fingers that get scratchy (women who smoke usually do not have nice skin). Ugh ! I feel more pity than contempt, after all, that is their life ... Maybe they get compensation, like, maybe they cannot bear feeling anything anymore, so they smoke ? Like, it is a protective mechanism ? Life has been or is too hard for them ? They are afraid to feel anything, or prefer to feel only one thing, the smell of smoke and effect of nicotine, so that all their life gets a unity (quite dull, like all unity). Hum, i prefer living life with all its variety, if you want my advice !